In repsonse to DM’s comment to my last post, I’d like to say that she is so right on every count. I have woven Chris into the very fabric of my being. I approach much of my life and respond to many situations using philosophies that were unknown to me before we met.
I suppose semantics could be at fault for the blurring of part of my writings. I repeatedly make reference to “letting go of my husband” and it wasn’t until I read DM’s comment that I realized what I really mean when I say that is “letting go of my sub-conscious, deep-seated and futile hopes that there’s a shred of a possibility of his physical return to me and to my life. Even though I know that sounds crazy, I’m talking about an overall emotion I have and not about any actual realistic hopes I have.
I believe that love never dies and I believe that when my time comes, I’ll be seeing Chris (in some form) again.
My grief has taken on a life of its own, which I know I have allowed to happen.
What I hope to do with hypnosis is allow myself to relax and admit (even though I know this, logically) that Chris is not going to return to my life and that things are never going to be the way they were. My subconscious belief to the contrary has become a very stubborn, harmful, life-sucking force, which I plan to erase very soon.
As always, DM, thank you very much for posting. I hope you had a wonderful holiday.
Shneed
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Hi Shneed- That makes lots of sense to me- both what you mean by 'letting go' and that you still have that unconscious, unrealistic belief that somehow, someway, Chris will return. It is helpful for me to know that that feeling will remain with me for a good long while. Kudos to you for knowing when it is time to let go, and for taking steps to do so. I hope the hypnosis is helpful.
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