Bonnie's Bytes

Bonnie, Chris' mum, my beloved mother-in-law has been taking a writing class as part of her healing process. Each week she, along with a group of other grieving partents, write about their thoughts and feelings pertaining to the loss of their children.

In Bonnie's last class, the instructor asked everyone to close their eyes. She walked around and dropped a potato in each of the parents' hands.

Bonnie's thoughts had a particularly profound effect on me and she was kind enough to let me post them here:


In the beginning. . .hmmm
Potatoes. . .
Earth
Renewal
Sustinence
Life
Spring comes again
Reborn
Cycle of Life
Circle of Life

In the beginning, Chris' death was personal, it was unfair, it was wrong, it was unimaginable.

Those feelings are receding a bit. Coming to the front is a sense that Chris and our family are part of the circle of life which includes birth and, sadly, death. Is this what "they" mean by making peace, acceptance, softening of the pain?

My friend told me on Sunday about how a woman who lost a son went to the Buddha and asked him to help. He told her he would but first she must do something for him. Bring him some mustard seed from a family who has never lost a loved one.

There it is again, acceptance, the circle of life, the mystery of life and death.

Am I making progress or is it just the extra 10 mg of Paxil my doctor prescribed?

Thank you, Bonnie.

Shneed