January 17, 2004

I’m scared of tomorrow. Tomorrow would have been my and Chris’ third wedding anniversary and I’m afraid of the fear I’m expecting to feel.

I’m not going to go to the trees. The trees are in my mind and in my heart, now. We may have stood beneath them when we said our vows, but what would I do beneath the trees without Chris there? He’s in my heart and in my mind and in my spirit (except for when I’m crying).

I’m sad.

-Shneed